Precious Moments: Jesus is the Light
It is with great sadness I am publishing this post.
Monday afternoon March 23, at 17 weeks along, my water broke. After being rushed to the ER, to our Baby Dr and back to the Hospital to be admitted, we learned that with my water breaking, the baby had lost all of the amniotic fluid the baby needs to be in to develop. Also, the risk of infection was very high for me with the cervix having a opening and that meant infections were going right to my bloodstream and I had a high risk of developing septic shock which can be fatal.
With labour induced, I delivered a little girl – Nichole Noelle who is 5 ounces and 7 inches long. Although Nikki had a heartbeat, her lungs and organs were not developed enough to survive. At 17 weeks, she was way to small even for the medical equipment to keep her alive and to let her grow. (Most premie medical equipment is for babies 24 weeks and larger)
We held Nikki for a long while, cried, told her how much we loved her, and said our goodbyes. This perfect little baby girl we had come so much to love – Nichole Noelle – was going to heaven to live.
The hospital took pictures of Nikki in her little sundress with her blanket. We will be receiving those at the end of the week. Her little sundress looks like it fits on a baby doll it is so tiny. Along with her sundress and blanket, the hospital gave us a gift basket with Nikki’s hat, certificate with her hand and footprints and a few other items for us to have and cherish.
A local Mortuary – Freeman Mortuary in Jefferson City – has donated their services for babies such as this who do not survive. They will be cremating Nikki and returning her ashes to us.
We purchased a very special Precious Moments Porcelain Figurine to keep her ashes in. Jesus is the Light. Godspeed Nikki, We love you!
I found your site while looking for a list of onomatopoeia words (which you had) and saw this on your recent posts list. Words cannot say how sorry I am to hear of your little girl passing. Tears came to my eyes just reading the title. May God continue to comfort you and your family and bless you richly in the years to come. You are in my prayers.
@Thank you Nitallica. It has been a while and great to hear from you! The birth and loss of our daughter was a hard one, but things are getting back to normal again.Thank you for your prayers. It is things like that which keep me going!
@Tricia, Thank you also. I too feel the comfort of her being in the hands where she can grow up normal in healthy. I had a friend of mine pass away last year, and I knowing my heart she is watching over nikki and they are both look down and smiling on us
I was going through my blogroll and came to your site in the first time in ages. I am so sorry to hear about your daughter. I’m praying for you and your loved ones!!
Nicki
(Nitallica)
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Great stuff! I’ve added your blog to my “reading material.” Keep me updated!
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I happened upon your site looking for a recipe and saw this post. You don’t know me, but I will be praying for you. Even as I rejoice for Nikki, knowing that she is in the arms of Jesus, my heart breaks for you. God bless and comfort you.